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[Original]Truly Madly Deeply[NC17 Slash][FIN] 21/21
« on: Thu, Mar 15, 2007, 03:54 AM »
Author: LouRose A.K.A Lil Blood

Title: Truly, madly, deeply



Chapter: 21/21 + pro/prelogue

Rating: NC-17 (Sexual situations, language, slash)

Warning: The following story contains graphic sexual content meant for mature readers. If you are not allowed, please don’t read it. Consider yourself warned. If you keep reading and you’re not allowed you should know that it’s your responsibility. This has strong explicit m/m sexual situations.

Pairing: Nathaniel (OMC) / Alexander (OMC)

Disclaimer: All the characters are mine.

Summary: Nat and Alex has been friends since kindergarten. What happens when they grow up and grow even more fond of each other... then one of them, is ripped away.

Archive: Please ask first.

Feedback: I’m looking forward to it.

NOTE: This chapter only. Hints of m/m-rape and violence.

Prologue

August 3rd, 2006.

Shit, if they knew I keep a journal, they'd kick my ass.

It's been... 3 month since I got here.

I can't stop shaking, my hands... they seem to have a life of their own.

During the first month I couldn't sleep. The sounds are somehow different here... at night.
The lights are always on... but I guess they don't care shit about that.

One of 'em groped me today, knocked a tooth out of his mouth. Damn he was pissed, but I guess I made sure he'd never touch me again.
No one is ever gonna touch me again... Damn Nat, I'm so sorry.

They did though, they did touch me... not much I could do about it at the time, or at least... that's what I thought. Today I discovered the true meaning of... hitting back.
That asshole wont try anything again.

Working out really paid off.

Nat... I didn't even get to go to your funeral.
My mom told me it was beautiful. A closed coffin though...
I would have loved to see you just one more time.

I'm sorry I hit him. I'm sorry I almost killed him but he... took you away from me.
No one is ever gonna take anything from me again, ever.

I'm beginning to learn the hierarchy, I'm gonna make sure I rise in rank... perhaps Adam can use a guy more at his side.

Note to myself... gotta work some more muscles. If I don't have that, I'll be of no use to him.
Adam..... didn't take me long to see he was on top. A 22 year old guy running this shithole... something so wrong about that.

They bring him smokes, drugs, money shit you name it... and for what? Being left alone from the rest of this population of fuckers.

Wait...

Damn, I gotta go, my mom is here, the guard is calling my name.
Gotta remember to hide you... don't want anyone to know... about me, about... us.

Damn Nat, I can't stop thinking of you, of us, in that shower, in the bed. Why did they have to find out? Everything was going great.

I can still feel you in my hand, the silky feeling of you...

Damn... bye... the guard is coming to get me.

Just another day in this shithole of a prison.

3 months down, another 4 years to go
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« Last Edit: Sat, Dec 22, 2007, 03:13 PM by LouRose »
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Re: Prologue
« Reply #1 on: Thu, Mar 15, 2007, 09:37 AM »
This is really interesting, Lou. You have me here wondering a lot of things. And that's good because it means I want answers.
I'm assuming Alex is the one in prison? and that he's the one writing the diary.

I want to find why Alex hit someone and was sent to prison for that?
I want to know everything about Nat and why he died.
I want to know who 'they' are. I mean the ones who found about their relationship. and why they cared at all.
I want to know what kidn of relationship Alex has with his mom because I'm assuming they are really close. Seeing how she went to visit him and she even went to Nat's funeral.
I wonder what Nat's parents thought about that fact.

So, as you can see there are some questions that need an answer. I'm not going to act like a greedy bitch already demanding more, but I'll stick around if you don't mind. I want to know where are you heading with this.
So far, it's good.
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« Reply #2 on: Mon, Mar 19, 2007, 03:16 AM »
Thank you so much for reading honey.
It means the world to me.

All those questions you have? They will be answered in time.

I hope you still want to read my story when I post the next chapter today or tomorrow.

Love you

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« Reply #3 on: Mon, Mar 19, 2007, 05:00 AM »
Alright so, lolol, thanks to my Beta for reading this through and thank you to you NJ for reading my story. I hope you like this next chapter.

Chapter 1:

Note for this chapter only: Strong sexual slash. Hints of domestic abuse.

We’d done it so many times before.
Camping in the woods, far away from everything. Our families and friends were all back in the city.
No one really knew why we kept distancing ourselves from them but to us it was very clear.

We had a secret.

****

His breath is hot on my neck, leaving a trail of dampness.
We’ve done this before.
We’re in separate sleeping bags, lying next to each other.
My back against his chest.

He’s jerking off, I pretend to be asleep.
Of course... we both know I’m awake.
Later during the night I’ll turn around and so will he, then it will be my turn to pretend.

His grunts turn me on so much.
There’s something different about tonight.
Something in the air, something about the silence of the forest.
My aching body longs for his touch, though he’s never touched me at all.

His free hand rests ever so lightly on my hip, his body is bucking and moans escape his throat.
I can’t take it anymore, I need to feel him touch me.

Slowly, I reach back and feel him pause.

This is out of the ordinary, I’m not supposed to move at all.
I take his free hand, and pull him closer to me, tuck his hand into the pants of my PJ’s.
His hand just stays there, frozen as if he’s touched something he’s not supposed to touch.

And he has... but slowly he relaxes, his hand wraps around the base of my erect dick and begins to move the sensitive skin up and down at an agonizing pace.

I lean into him, and feel his other hand starting to move again.
Now he’s jacking us both off and it feels amazing.
His hand is so warm, applying just the right amount of pressure, the heat spreading through my body.

I cry out as I feel him cum on the flushed skin of my back. It’s so hot.
That’s not supposed to happen either.
I feel it running down my skin slowly, a bit of it finding its way down the crack of my ass.

Feeling it come, the beautiful bliss of release, I wrap my own hand around his and we jerk me off together. His tongue trails my neck and my body shudders, a loud moan escapes my lips as I cum, my own hand relaxing, but his still pumping me hard.

****

This wasn’t supposed to have happened.
We were supposed to have done it as we used to.
But that night... changed both of our lives... forever
« Last Edit: Wed, Dec 31, 1969, 04:00 PM by LouRose »
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« Reply #4 on: Mon, Mar 19, 2007, 05:19 AM »
And? And? And? Ok, NJ doesn't want to be greedy but I do. Next please? Very curious to see the pieces fall into place.

Del
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Re: Chapter 1
« Reply #5 on: Mon, Mar 19, 2007, 05:42 AM »
You kidding, right? I love it!

We had a secret.
***Yum, I love 'secrets'.

He’s jerking off, I pretend to be asleep.
Of course... we both know I’m awake.
Later during the night I’ll turn around and so will he, then it will be my turn to pretend.

***The complicity and the implicit trust is really strong and you described it perfectly with just a few lines.

There’s something different about tonight.
I take his free hand, and pull him closer to me, tuck his hand into the pants of my PJ’s.
His hand just stays there, frozen as if he’s touched something he’s not supposed to touch.
And he has... but slowly he relaxes, his hand wraps around the base of my erect dick and begins to move the sensitive skin up and down at an agonizing pace.

***I don't know how old they were but their innocence can be felt along with their desire. It feels as if something forbidden, a taboo. That second of incertainty, the doubt, the fear.They know they shouldn't be doing that but still...there they are changing the rules of the game.

Absolutely wonderful. I really like the rhythm in this first chapter.

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I hope you still want to read my story when I post the next chapter today or tomorrow.



Well as long as you are not planning to turn your characters into male Mary Sue version; or you start including gore crap for the hell of it; or you try to sell me that someone who has been sexually abused can have sex without any physical and/or psychological sequel after weeks or days. I would say I'm not going anywhere, Lou.

It takes a lot to offend me because I have a really open mind and I love porn. But I don't like writers that pretend I'm stupid and try to feed me shit without showing a minimum respect.

I really like the idea here. So I'll keep an eye on the next update. Just please, keep writing even if you don't have a lot of readers or reviewers.
Well done, love. :kiss
NJ
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« Reply #6 on: Mon, Mar 26, 2007, 02:51 AM »
Del and NJ, thank you so so much for your feedback.
It warms my heart to see that you like my story.
Nat and Alex has become my babies and I care for them with all my heart.
I know right now you have alot of questions and don't worry, they will all be answered.

I am not abandoning this story, even if I have to be the only one to read it. Lolol.

Enjoy the next chapter.

Chapter 2:

Note for this chapter only: Hints of slash-situations. Hints of domestic-abuse.
1 year earlier

The blond spiky hair waves around his face.
Nat’s doing his homework and hasn’t even heard me entering the room.

I can’t deny it... I simply can’t, I want to run my hands through his hair, down his face, touch these beautiful soft lips.

“Hey... didn’t hear ya.”
His voice startles me and I smile, blink a few times before entering completely.
“Yeah well, you looked oh so concentrated and I didn’t wanna disturb you.”

He throws back his head and laughs.
It’s such a wonderful laugh, his white teeth showing clearly.

His eyes are shut, the wrinkles on his face turning upwards, instead of down. I’ve seen him sad too many times and take so much pleasure in seeing him happy.

His laughter reaches my heart and warms it. If only he knew what he does to me.

A hand reaches up to wipe the tears from his face.
“Fuck you,” he smiles and returns to his books. “I’m almost done, make yourself at home.”

Make myself at home... in this dump of a room.
His parents aren’t poor but they’re not rich either.
When they first moved here, everyone thought they had such a cool family, even I thought that.

Well, at least until I found out that his dad was hitting him.

I sit down on his bed and lean back against the wall.
He lives on the attic, the roof making up the walls of the small room.
Since there's not much room where you can actually stand up straight the room seems much smaller than it is. And it’s not even big in the first place.

I look at his lean back.
18 years old and beautiful like nothing else.
I wonder what he’ll look like when he’s older.
Will his shoulders get broader? Will his face change... will he ever get out of here?

My fingers almost touch his hair but he stands up, my hand running down his back by accident.
He feels it... but ignores it. Silently I thank him for that.

“You feel like going to the arcade?” My voice cracks a bit, I guess my nervousness is still evident.

He nods and smiles at me. There they are... those lips again.
I feel my dick twitch in my pants and as we walk down the stairs I adjust myself, knowing the arcade is not the place to walk around with a boner.

****

He’s won 3 times in a row.
I’m beginning to get annoyed and snap when he mocks me.
I hate it when he does that.

Slamming the controller back in its place I stomp out of there, fuming and flushed red in my face.

I hear him laughing behind me and walk faster.
I know he’s going to follow me... he always does.
Physically I lead... but mentally, he’s the braver one of the two of us.

I respect him because of that.

I lean against the cold wall, the bricks are wet and clammy from the humidity...
My breathing is heavy, not from walking fast or being mad.
I’m fucking frustrated... my dick is hard, my heart is pounding and now... I can smell him too.

He’s standing in front of me with a big ass grin on his face.

I snap. “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LAUGHING ABOUT!”
He chuckle and stand next to me, his arms crossed over his chest.
Deep in his heart he knows that I would never hurt him.

He shakes his head and puts his hand on my shoulder.
“It’s just a fucking game... what is wrong with you?”

I brush off his hand and turn to face him.
“You really want to know what’s wrong?” I snarl and raised my brows.

He nods and cocks his head to the side. Dammit I love it when he does that.

I grab one of his hands and shove it down my pants, my cock throbbing for any kind of attention.
This is my fucking problem!”
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« Reply #7 on: Mon, Mar 26, 2007, 02:56 AM »
Damn, and you stopped there why????????  :kiss
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« Reply #8 on: Mon, Mar 26, 2007, 10:06 AM »
Brilliant sweetie. I love this story already. I know I am slow latelybut I am getting round to catching up with all the new stories and this one rocks :)
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Re: Chapter 2
« Reply #9 on: Tue, Mar 27, 2007, 02:25 AM »
Wow... I love how you're flawlessly mixing their innocent and lust. Wonderful.

Physically I lead... but mentally, he’s the braver one of the two of us.
***I really like this line because he has no other way to be. I mean Nat has no other choice but to be that way, especially if he's being abused by his father. No wonder Alex respects him for that.

“It’s just a fucking game... what is wrong with you?”
***It's NOT a game for Alex. He's in love with Nat and Nat is playing he's not realizing.

“You really want to know what’s wrong?” I snarl and raised my brows.
He nods and cocks his head to the side. Dammit I love it when he does that.

***His love and frustration all together in two lines. What a way to summarize such complicated feelings. Way to go, Lou.

I'm really enjoying this story, Lou. You have me here wondering what the hell happened? How did Nat end dead and Alex in prison?! Don't wanna start bitching, asking for more, honey, but if you're going to keep teasing me this way...
Well done, Lou. I'm not going anywhere.  :kiss
NJ
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« Reply #10 on: Fri, Mar 30, 2007, 04:31 AM »
First of all I just wanna say thank you to my readers. Lurkers and the ones leaving feedback.

Maus: Thank you for betaing this for me. Things are going pretty fast and I always appreciate your comments and your help. You're an angel.

Rachel: I am so happy that you have decided to join us on this journey. Nat and Alex are something special for sure. I hope you will continue to read it. Love you.

NJ: Thank you so so so much for your support and your comments. They mean more to me than you could ever know.

So thank you again all of you and here's the next chapter.

Lou
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« Reply #11 on: Fri, Mar 30, 2007, 04:35 AM »
Chapter 3:

Note to this chapter: Strong Sexual m/m situations
I can’t help myself laughing softly at the expression he shows.
His eyes are wide with shock, his lips parted just slightly open as he breathes deeply, not a hiss... but not relaxed either.

Nat pulls back his hand.
“What the hell are you doing, Alex?”

Suddenly the features on his face shows anger instead of shock.

I shake my head, I knew he would never understand.

“Hey Alex, hey Nat!” Some of our friends come running towards us and I smile a fake smile.
“Hey Sam, what’s up?” I shake hands with him and Nat does the same.

Damn I am so fucking pissed off right now.

“I was just heading home.” I mumble and put my hands in my pockets, adjusting myself discretely.

Nat looks at me... he noticed what I did.

Sam smiles and puts his arm around my shoulder, dragging me along with him and the gang.
Nat is coming too. He looks just as pissed as I do.

****

They’ve been playing XBOX all night.
It’s 2 am and finally everyone is going to sleep.
We just decided to crash at his place.

Nat is lying next to me, his back against my chest.
We’re not touching but I can feel the heat radiate from his body.

I look around briefly, before opening my pants, freeing my dick, already hard from being so close to him.

I gulp down some air after I realize just how hard I was panting.
Wishing it was his hand around my shaft I close my eyes and start to jack off. He’s so hot, so inviting.

I imagine his hands, cupping my sac, massaging it slowly while his mouth is sucking me off.

Oh God...

I bite down in the pillow and grunt as I cum hard in my own fist, careful not to spill any of it.

Dammit...

I look around again and go to the bathroom. My dry hand holding up my pants.
After I wash my hands I wipe myself clean before taking a leak.
Then I wash my hands again before going back into the room smelling of... Nat.

He’s turned onto his other side. He’s still asleep I can tell.

With a bit of awkward moving and waiting, I manage to get back onto the bed where I lie down, this time my back to his chest.

I almost doze off but I wake up the instant I hear the sound of a zipper slowly being pulled down.

He’s trying so hard not to make too much noise... and he’s good, but still I can hear him.

By accident his hand bumps my back and I feel him tense and pause before continuing.

It doesn’t take long before I know what he’s doing.

His breath hits my neck in small pants, goosebumps spreading across my skin.

I wonder if he realizes I’m still awake.

He moans out loud by accident and pauses again, before regaining his control.

I can hear it, I never knew it would sound like that.
It sounds like, skin slapping softly against skin, a soft intimate sound that brings my dick back to life.

He too, grunts, as he cums and I hear him cuss under his breath.
Maybe some of it slipped through his fingers.

I hold my breath as he rises from the bed, walking to bathroom.

He’s in there for an awefully long time.
10 minutes pass by and I start to worry.

I get up from the bed and open the door to the bathroom slowly.
The light is off but I hear the water to the shower running.

What the hell is he doing now?

“Nat?” I speak almost in a whisper and hear him jump slightly in the water.
“What?”
“You ok?”
I hear the water being turned off and I see his shadow step out of the shower.

If only his body was half as beautiful as his shadow he would be the most beautiful creature walking this earth.

“Yeah... I... I just had to wash something off.”

He’s mumbling but I hear him and I understand.

“Yeah, I know.” I answer him, knowing I just gave myself away.

He stops and I see him turn towards me.

“You... you heard?” His voice is tense and a part of me regrets saying it.

I nod, and I know he’s seen me in the faint light coming from the bedroom.

Turning around, I’m about to leave as I hear his voice from the shadows.

“I heard you too.”

He walks past me into the bedroom, fully dressed again.

“You heard me? Why didn’t you stop me?” I talk as low as I can, don’t want any of the others to hear our secret conversation.

He stops and turns to look at me. There’s something about his eyes, I can’t quite make it out. Then it hits me, the son of a bitch is grinning.

“Did you want me to stop you?”

I freeze...

I can’t believe you just said that...

He continues to rest on the bed again and lifts himself up on his elbows, looking at me.
“Are you coming or not?”

Damn, there he is, just the way I like it.
Spread out on the bed, wanting me to devour him... and I FUCKING can’t.

I shake my head and go to the bed and lay down next to him.

This time we just lie there... looking at each other.

“I can’t believe we just did that.” He’s giggling and fumbles with the corner of a blanket.
A laugh escapes my lips and we both look around to see if anyone has heard us.

“Did what?” I wink at him. “I mean... as long as we don’t know...  no one really knows... right?”
I can see that my words have confused him.

“So what you’re saying is... as long as we are “asleep” there’s absolutely nothing wrong with this?”

I nod and his face lights up with a smile.

“Done.” He reaches out his hand and I take it, electricity surging through our bodies.

Dammit, why does he have to be so hot?
I want to touch you and tease you, feel you and love you
Fuck... did I just think that?

Slowly his breathing changes, into a deep slow breathing.

I watch him and smile. I simply can’t help it, so I move closer, our bodies almost touching.
He’s so sexy lying there.

My fingers twirl in his blond hair and wonder if he sees me the same way.
Will he ever see me the same way?

I jump as he takes my other hand and put his own to rest on top of it.

Damn, he fooled me again. He ain’t sleeping.

“Jackass,” I tease him and see him smile.
“Fuck you.”

His eyes open and we just lie there, looking at each other for a while.
Once in a while we smile, fluttering feelings in the pit of my stomach.

“What are we going to do?” His voice suddenly sounds sad and I can’t help but frown.
“What do you mean?” My dick twitches as his thumb starts to stroke the back of my hand.

Our eyes meet and I smile.

I need to do this, I simply have too.

I move my hand and he looks disappointed.
But he smiles the second I cup his face and stroke over his brows with my thumb.

“One day at a time Nat... One day at a time.”
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« Reply #12 on: Fri, Mar 30, 2007, 06:39 AM »
A great update, nice and long and detailed, just the way I like `em.

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If only his body was half as beautiful as his shadow he would be the most beautiful creature walking this earth.



I particularly loved the poetry in this one line. Very well written.

I think you captured the emotions well in this chapter, both wanting each other and both not doing or saying anything - just fumbling around in the dark, pretending to be alseep.

I can't wait for the next update, sweetie :hugs
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« Reply #13 on: Mon, Apr 02, 2007, 11:45 PM »
Yeah this is one of the longest chapters I've ever written. lolol

I really try to capture their love and devotion for each other.
They have this thing but none of them has the courage to tell the other.

And like Alex says, one day at a time.

Thank you for reading Rachel. :kiss
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« Reply #14 on: Tue, Apr 03, 2007, 12:38 AM »
Honey, I was about to quote my favorite sentence when I saw that Rachel had already singled it out. There's nothing left for me to say, 'cause this sentence just sums it up perfectly.

I loved this chapter, you already know that. And I'm eagerly waiting for the next one.

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« Reply #15 on: Wed, Apr 11, 2007, 01:46 AM »
Thank you Tina for leaving me feedback and thank you to those of you who also reads without leaving feedback.

I dont have much time today so here's the nexy chapter.
I hope you like it.

Lou


NOTE: HAHAHHAAHHA oh TIna, thank you for pointing that out to me. ROFLMFAO.
So here's chapter 4:

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Chapter 4:

Note for this chapter: Very Strong sexual m/m situations.

I wake up and see the bed empty beside me.

Sam walks up to me and smiles. “His dad called and demanded that Nat came home.”
I can’t help but shake my head.
With a bit of effort I sit in the bed.

“You alright Alex?” Sam’s voice is concerned and I smile up at him.
“Everything’s fine, no worries. I think I’m gonna head on home.”

I look back as I leave and wave to Sam, standing in the window of his room.

******

His moans are filling the small room.

For once his parents are out of town and we’ve locked ourself in his room.

We’re lying on the bed.
He’s behind me, jacking off and it pains me that he doesn’t want to touch me.
It’s not like I asked... I simply don’t want to push him.

His hand is suddenly resting on my hip, his fingers digging into my skin and I moan, feeling him go harder on himself.

I tuck my hand into my pants and wrap my fingers around myself.
He cries out as he cums, his fingers clawing at my hip before finally relaxing.

We’ve done this so many times before, so I wait... until he’s turned onto his other side, waiting for my move.

The scruffling sound stops and I turn around to look at his back, and his ass.

His ASS!

His pants are still pushed down and his ass is showing.

Fuck

I free myself from my pants and start to jerk off violently.
I need to cum, I want nothing than to empty myself on him, watch it drip down onto the blankets, knowing he too, felt me cum.

I claw his bare skin on his hips and watch his body move closer, clenching his ass slightly.

Fuck

Not being able to hold it in, I cum in a mindblowing release, throwing my head back, calling out his name.

Fortunately I was able to restrain myself from cuming on his ass.

We lay there, panting for a bit before finally getting out of bed, trotting to the bathroom, to wash ourselves clean.

I don’t want him clean, I want him in my mouth.

I shake my head.

Fucking stop it, Alex.

*****

1 year later

We’re in the tent, he’s just cum on the small of my back, and I just came in his hand.

He’s quiet behind me and I close my eyes, feeling the liquid cooling on my hot skin.

It’s happened... it’s finally happened.

He’s still just lying there so I move to turn around and he lift his arms, and when I’m facing him, puts it back down...

So we’ve come to this.

He’s looking at me, and I’m looking back.

Slowly I lean in closer and I see doubt flash briefly on the features of his face.

We’re so close now, we’re breathing the same air, warm and cool rush through us at the same time.

“What are you doing?”

He fucking knows what I’m doing.

I look down on his limp dick... well not so limp anymore, and look back up at him.
“I want to touch you.”

He holds his breath and I smile as his dick comes back to life completely.

I scoot down slowly, lower and lower. Until I’m curled up beside him, our legs crossing, my head at one level with his crotch. I look directly at his cock for the first time, ever.
He’s big for a 19 year old.

The purpleish head is surrounded by thick veins and suddenly I find it very very sexy that he’s circumsized, which made my dick hurt in the past whenever I thought about it.
My finger traces the head slowly, the small droplet of pre-cum smeared onto the silky hardness.

“Oh my God.” I whisper, mostly to myself but I know he’s heard me.

He starts to move, he wants to lie on his back, so he does, lifting his hips motioning for me to take off his PJ’s.

He’s here, he’s naked, his legs are bent and spread wide, giving me full-access to his most intimate parts. I hold my breath as my eyes glance down and smile at the look of that small dark puckered hole.

I’m between his legs now, looking and touching. Everywhere and everything.
Licking on the tip of my finger I circle the head again. I bite my lower lip before sucking my finger back into me mouth, tasting him ever so slightly.

He lifts his ass just a bit as my fingers trails down to the dark hole, circling it a few times before easing back up to his sac.

Oh my god...


I massage it gently, watching him react and hear him hiss.

It’s not very comfortable lying on my stomach. My dick is so hard.

I smile as he passes me a pillow, that makes it just a little bit softer.

He hisses through his teeth as I reward him by wrapping my fingers around his erection.
I’ve never seen him this hard. I can’t believe how silky soft it is, and still it’s so hard.

He spreads his legs as far apart as he possibly can and throw his head back, his breathing slow and deep.

I can’t take it anymore.

With a bit of hesitation I lean closer and lick with the tip of my tongue from the base of his cock and up to the throbbing head. He groans and writhes a bit.

My lips close around the head and I thank the God we’re not in the city.
People would hear him moaning if we were.
I begin to bob my head up and down slowly, tasting him, sensing him.
He unconsciously jerks his hips and his dick bumps against the back of my throat.
The gag reflex almost overwhelmes me but I forget all about it as he buries his fingers in my dark hair.

“Alexander...”

I stop as I hear him cry out my name.
There’s a lump in my throat, and it has nothing to do with the dick filling my mouth.

I rest a hand on his stomach while the other begins to caress his sac.

He’s tossing his head back and forth, his hips moving slowly up and down, following the rhythm I set. He tastes so good.

Suddenly his head snaps up and he looks at me.
He doesn’t need to say anything.

Quickly I move before I hear him cry out, I wrap my fingers around him and jack him off as he cums again, hard.

When it’s over his eyes are closed and he’s completely relaxed.
There’s still some cum on the head of his dick and I lean in to lick him clean.
There’s a small humming sound escaping his throat, so I’m guessing he likes it.

His eyes open, and with a hazed expression he smiles at me.
“That was.... amazing.”
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« Reply #16 on: Wed, Apr 11, 2007, 02:21 AM »
:think  :think  :think
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« Reply #17 on: Wed, Apr 11, 2007, 02:40 AM »
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Yep, that about sums it up. I'm glad they finally got together, no more guilty sneaking around. You described their first time wonderfully honey. Well done.

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« Reply #18 on: Wed, Apr 11, 2007, 04:18 AM »
Damn, Lou, I missed chapter 3 and now I found chapter 4 by chance. I don't like the fact I'm not receiving alerts for this story and it piss me off because I don't want to miss the updates. Ok, with that said, back to topic.

In chapter 3, how they reached that simple deal in such natural way as if it was something that was meant to be. Beautiful. Their complicity and understanding is touching.

Now in chapter 4, So one more step ahead in their relationship and even though the remorse or guilt is not there anymore you still managed to keep their innocent. I really love the way they are showing so much feelings and emotions with just few gestures and signs. Really damn good, Lou. I absolutely love this story.
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« Reply #19 on: Mon, Apr 16, 2007, 02:19 AM »
Chapter 4 Feedback:

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“That was.... amazing.”



Took the words right outta my mouth. That was amazing.

Your writing is coming on in leaps and bounds. The depth of emotion that you caught between the characters is fantastic. And because of the little bits of detail added, it forms a picture in my mind - which is how I like to read.

Well done sweetie, keep it up and update soon :hugs
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« Reply #20 on: Thu, Apr 19, 2007, 02:14 AM »
Just wanna thank you ladies for reading this story. Means so much to me.

Maus, Thanks for your feedy. I wanted their first encounter with touching each other to be special... and I guess it did.

NJ, don't worry about missing a chapter. This story is not going anywhere. Lol. They have such a sweet relationship. They are so good to each other. I'm so happy you still read my story. Thank you.

Rachel, thank you so much for leaving me some feedback. It really do mean the world to me. Their emotions are so deep and intense I wonder sometimes how will I ever get that down on paper. I'm glad I succeed.

And without anymore fuss, here's the nect chapter.

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Chapter 5:

Note to this chapter: Strong sexual m/m situations, Strong violence and BAD BAD language

We scoot into one of the sleepingbags naked, cling to each other like death is waiting... if we ever let go. Sleep takes us into the sweet world of dreams, where no one or nothing can hurt us.

When I wake up, Nat is still asleep, his arms is around my waist, his hand is resting on one of the cheeks of my ass.

Something makes me frown... oh shit, a morning boner, I hope he doesn’t notice, or maybe I do.
I chuckle and begin to move, either to make sure he wakes up, or to get some kind of relief on my dick.

His clear blue eyes open and he smiles so wonderfully to me.
“Morning.”
“Morning to you too.”
“I wasn’t talking to you, Alex.”
“Then who were you talking to?”

Nat looks down into the sleeping bag and rubs his own erection against mine.

“Oh shit.”

Suddenly we’re at it again.
The sleepingbag is tossed away and he’s between my legs, our dicks and balls being slapped hard against each other. It’s a wonderful feeling.
The sounds, the smell...

He throws back his head and go faster and harder.
It’s on the brink of pain but suddenly he stops.

I dont understand why and open my eyes.

Deep red blood drips from his chest down to my own.

“NAT!” I jump up and he blinks a few times before slumping onto the blankets.

“YOU FUCKING FAGGOTS!” Nat’s dad is running towards our tent with a couple of other guys.

“Stop.. please stop, he’s hurt.” My plea is not heard and with the back of his hand, Nat’s dad sends me tumbling out through the other end of the tent.

“I HOPE HE’S FUCKING DEAD!” They’re yelling and kicking, screaming and punching me with sticks and bats.

I can see Nat in the tent, he’s not moving.
What did they do, what did you do to him?

I snap and get on my feet, grab one of the guys bat and sends him slamming into a tree.
“BACK THE FUCK OFF” I scream with all the power in my lungs.

They still for a minute until Nat’s dad raises a gun.
I knock it out of his hand and manage to get it.

I point straight at his crotch and smirk at the frightened look on his face.

“Alex... don’t.” I hear Nat from the tent and look at him with a frightened look.

Nat’s dad looks at me and smiles.
He leans in to say something to one of his other guys who walks over to the tent and lifts Nat’s head by jerking on his hair.

“If you shoot me... Bob will finish off Nathaniel, you fucking faggot!”

I can’t help it and I let go of the gun, Nat’s dad picking it up without hesitation.

“Fuckhead!”

As if in slow-motion I watch Bob bring a knife to Nats throat and I scream.
With speed I never knew I had, I take the gun out of Nats dad’s hands and point it straight at Bob, pulling the trigger.

The gunshot still lingers in the forest, and I watch Bob collaps on top of Nats lifeless body.

“GET AWAY FROM HIM YOU BASTARD!” I throw myself towards the tent, and drag away Bobs body.

I pick up Nats body in my arms and rock him back and forth.

“Fucking punk!”

A knock on the back of my head sends my into the sweet blackness, longing to hear Nats beautiful voice.

Alexander.
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Re: Chapter 5
« Reply #21 on: Thu, Apr 19, 2007, 03:26 AM »
Whoa, whoa, whoa there, missy, what was that? I think I missed something or you went damn fast from point A to point B without giving me a chance to breath.

So they were 'together' and out of nowhere Nat's dad showed up with a couple of buddies. And they shot Nat? I mean from where the blood spilling down Nat's chest came?
I'm guessing Alex ended up in prison for killing Bob, right? But Bob already had killed Nat?

 :hit2 You have to fill me in the blanks because I'm very lost here.
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« Reply #22 on: Thu, Apr 19, 2007, 05:58 AM »
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Something makes me frown... oh shit, a morning boner


Lord, I cracked up laughing at that image  :laughter

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Deep red blood drips from his chest down to my own.


After the giggle, this bit came as a shock  :sand
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« Reply #23 on: Fri, Apr 27, 2007, 05:01 AM »
Hey,

Wanted to supply the next chapter, before the weekend comes.
But first a small thanks to my readers for reading this story.

NJ, In a way I am glad that I caught you by susprise. (as a write you know how we aim to please our readers with intense and exciting, sad, beautiful, sexual stories. I hope to get all kinds of reactions with this story.
I hope this next chapter can tie up some loose ends.

Rachel, Thank you for your feedback. It means so much. It was a shock to me too when I wrote it, when I found out for myself how it all would turn out. I am so happy I made you giggle and dont worry, I'm sure I can make you giggle later on.

And without any other rambling I present to you chapter 6.

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Note for this chapter: Tears...

Chapter 6:

I don’t understand it.
How did this happen?

The doctor is looking me over, taking in the bruises, the beatings and swapping the dried semen on my body.

I can’t move. Well I can move if I want to... but I don’t.

My mother is holding my hand.

Daddy left us when I was very young, leaving me and my mom behind.

The second I knew something was special about my sexual preferences... I told her, and she hugged me, held me close to her heart and told me that as long as I was happy, there was nothing more she could ask for.

The cops are waiting outside.

“Is he dead?” My throat is dry and my tongue feels swollen.

A single tear runs down her cheek and she hides her face with her available hand.

No... no Nat can’t be dead.

“Mom?” My voice shakes and I tug gently on her hand.

She nods and my world falls apart.

My body is numb but I cry.
My mom dries my face but every time she removes the small piece of cloth, new tears fall freely.
“Alexander... be brave, everything is going to be alright.”

Alexander, don’t cry.

My hands turn into fists as I throw back my head and scream with all the rage and love in my heart, threatening to blow me up if I don’t.

The doctor looks at me, startled by my outburst and the cops come crashing through the door.

“Everything is alright.” The doctor says and pushes them back outside.

“Alexander, we need to talk about something.” My mom says and I look at her with my bloodshot eyes.

“Nat’s dad says that you shot someone and that he came very close to dying.”
I frown and don’t understand what it is she’s saying.

“They’re gonna charge you, for attempted murder.”

My eyes widen with shock.

“What about Nat?” I whisper and shake my head. “They killed Nat.”
“Actually sweetheart, they’ve been able to get away with it, don’t ask me how, but they did.”

No no no no

“This can’t be happening.” I start to cry again, and hide my face in my hands.

***

I’m in the holding cell, waiting for the jury to make their desicion.
I was told by the lawyer appointed to me from the beginning that because I was only 19, the punishment would be lighter than if I was older.

“Case number 57892, the State of New York versus Alexander Cloudera.” Don’t ask me why my mother took my dad’s name. It’s bloody ugly.

“Please rise for the honorable Judge Risay.”

The judge sits down in his chair and looks at me briefly.
“Has the jury reached a verdict?” His voice is deep and comfortable.

The foreman of the jury stands and takes a piece of paper.
“We have, Your Honor.”

“Will the jury read the verdict please?”

“In the case of the State versus Alexander Cloudera, we find the defendant guilty of attempted murder.”

My head becomes dizzy and I sit on my chair.

The Judge reads from a piece of paper and then looks down at me.
“I judge you to 4 years of prison at the Bayview Correctional Facility for 4 years with no possibility of early release. The trial is closed.

My mother cries out and faints, my aunt takes her hand and drag her up again. She looks at me with such judging eyes and I try to smile.

I never did this to hurt anyone. Least of all my mom.

With teary eyes my mother wakes up and I reach out my hand to her.
“I’m sorry mom.” I kiss the back of her hand and once again my heart breaks.

How did this happen?
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« Reply #24 on: Thu, May 03, 2007, 01:12 AM »
How did this happen? I agree! How did it?

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« Reply #25 on: Mon, May 07, 2007, 05:45 AM »
Thank you so so much for your feedy Tina. I really appreciate it.
Yes, he's in jail. Dont quite know myself how it all ended up so bad.

Thanks for everything  :kiss
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« Reply #26 on: Thu, May 10, 2007, 03:52 PM »
Hi, Love, I managed to take a seat in front of my PC and after replying my post I'm here.

Damn, that chapter was sad. I hate to know those fuckers were left free without paying for Nat's tragic death. I can't help but wonder if the fact Nat and Alex were homosexuals played in favor of them and against Alex. I seriously hope he can find a way to get justice.

I really like the relationship Alex has with his mom. She's not judging, just showing love and understanding. It must be so hard for her, being there watching his son in prison.

Damn! I hope you keep writing and posting, Lou. I really wnat to find where are you goind to lead us.
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« Reply #27 on: Tue, May 15, 2007, 06:38 AM »
Alright, so I'm gonna go ahead and post the next chapter.
Thanks to you girls for sticking with me.

Tina, I know it must seem frustrating right now but no worries, answers will come in the next chapters. Thank you for reading and responding sweetheart.

NJ, Thank you so so soooo much for taking time to sit down and read my story. His mother has been very supporting. I'm glad that you enjoy my story and hope you will like the next chapter as well.

So... on to chapter 7 and sorry it's a shortie.

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Chapter 7:

My mom gave me a letter from Nat’s sister.
Apparently she wanted to come and visit me but she couldn’t because of her dad.
The bastard.

Can you believe they got away with this?

I’m becoming someone in here. I do errands for Adam and he takes care of me.
No one ever touched me since the third month, when I started punching back.

A journal, I never knew a journal could save my life.

Attempted murder my ass. I hit the fucking bastard in his shoulder.

So... here I am, the guy I share a cell with, you know... Tom, get’s out tomorrow.
I can’t wait till I get out but that’s another... 3 years. Damn time goes so slowly.

Adam came over to me after lunch today and offered me some drugs. I came so fucking close at saying yes but, I said no, just for him, for you Nat. I said no for you.

Oh God, how did I let it happen, why couldn’t I stop them. I should’ve stopped them.

Nat, I swear I am going to make your father pay for what they did to you... to us.

No, I wont kill them, I’m not a fucking murderer but I am sure as hell going to make them pay.

I saw someone today, he looked an awful lot like you Nat.

Nathaniel... my beautiful wonderful Nat.

I miss you so much, sometimes I feel my heart breaking over and over again.
We never got to make love, we should have had time to make love to each other.
I suppose that if we hadn’t been interrupted that beautiful morning, we would have.

I hate those fuckers! My hatred is burning me up, and I don’t know what to do with all my rage.
Working out helps a lot, I imagine the punching-bag being your dad or one of his... fucking bullies.

I’m sorry for swearing. I’m just so... tired, like I can’t live without you, like my breathing doesn’t matter cause you’re not here.

3 years left... I wonder how time will pass.
Will it become easier for me in here or will it become even harder?
Shit, I think I’m loosing my mind.
Sometimes at night, I hear your voice, calling out for me, touching me with your love.

Shit, can’t cry, not now, tonight, when the lights are dimmed, when I’m in the top-bunk, on my side, imagining you behind me.
Loving me, taking me, claiming me.

I need to go, dinnertime is coming up.
At least I’m seated at Adam’s table now. That means no one will touch me.
That means... I’m an errand boy, but don’t worry, I will rise in ranks.

For you Nat.

I wonder what’s for dinner.
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« Reply #28 on: Tue, May 15, 2007, 08:57 AM »
This is wonderful. I just sat and read it all! I almost started crying!  :cry Wonderful! Wonderful! Wonderful! I cant wait to read more!
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« Reply #29 on: Tue, May 15, 2007, 09:12 AM »
I really like how every single thought or idea he has ends up going back to Nat, again and again. It certainly shows how deep his love runs, that's for sure.
I also liked how he has managed to survive within prison using whatever he has found at his reach. There are not too many things to do locked there but to think and plot a way to get justice.

Waiting for more, Lou. You're doing a godd job so far.
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