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[Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« on: Wed, Nov 25, 2009, 10:47 AM »
Author:  FuryanGoddess
Title:  Human Emotions
Fandom:  Star Trek 2009
Rating:  PG-13 for content
Pairing:  Spock and OFC
Summary:  Facing ones feelings is never easy, regardless of species.
Feedback:  Yes please. I've never written Star Trek before and would like some feed back.  Please be kind.  No flames. I wrote this because Spock won't leave me alone.  It's the first thing I've written in months, first thing I've finished in a year.  I do not know much about the ST-verse.
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Author's notes:  Thank you to Evilgrin for the support and beta.  Love you, babe!  You're the best!



 
Alabaster and onyx.  Black and white.  Logic and emotion.  Everything about his nature warred against itself yet he remained aloof and detached.  He chose to not show the emotion that raged like a tempest inside of him unless he was pushed past the breaking point and than he lost all control.  All sense of right and wrong briefly flew out the window and he became pure instinct.  Primal.  Beautiful.

Spock was a man of two worlds and belonged to neither.  Sure in his logic and thinking but unsure in how to feel and react to the world around him.

A lost soul begging to be found.  Begging for the peace and harmony that his Vulcan brothers and sisters lived in.  Spock stood alone, always alone... until her.

She was fully human and a mess of emotions and he found fascinating and infuriating. He did not understand half of what she said and none of what she did, but still he tried.  He watched.  He puzzled and thought.  He questioned until his head throbbed and still his questions remained unanswered.    

Autumn could scarcely breathe when he was close and he always seemed close lately.  Always asking questions and looking at her like one of his experiments. Watching her when he was sure she was unaware.  But she was, she was aware of his every action and his every move.  She watched him just as intently as he.

The cadence of his voice sent chills down her spine and she had many fantasies about nibbling on his ears.  Odd, Autumn knew, but she had them just the same.  She wanted to see him naked, to see his vast expanse of skin bare of cloth.  Exposed.  Vulnerable.  Spock never seemed vulnerable, but she knew better.

He had subtle tells.  It was mostly in his eyes, if you knew what you were looking for.  And Autumn knew.  After months of close contact on the bridge, short, tense missions and passing by him on Earth, she knew.

Autumn briefly wondered if she was obsessed, but she knew the answer to that question.  She was in love.  She loved Spock so fiercely and fully that it threatened to consume her.  Too bad he showed no real interest in her that way.

If he found her attractive, he never let on, at least in her eyes.  God, how she wanted him.  She could hardly do her job any longer knowing he was so close, but still, worlds away.

It was logical to stay away from the human.  Logical to avoid being alone and in tight spaces with her.  Spock tried to pretend that he was unaffected by how short her skirt was or the blistering rage he felt when someone else noticed too.

He was Vulcan.  They did not act on the more primitive urges.  They did not give in to feelings of lust and anger, of love.  He did not want to make the same mistake as his father.  While Spock loved his mother fiercely, being half Human caused him a lot of ridicule and made others view him as defective.

Maybe it was a fault he had inherited from his father or part of his mother's humanity trying to force its way past all the cool process thought.  Spock really did not know but he was sure he did not want to find out.  He would not copulate with the human.

His jaw was set and he looked almost angry.  It was a look Autumn had only seen on him once before, when Kirk told him that he never cared about his mother.

He had lost it then, his attack had been quick and overwhelming.  He had Kirk neutralized in seconds and for a few tense moments, everyone was unsure if he would kill him.

"Spock," Kirk turned in his chair and faced the man, "why don't you and Autumn go and review the navigation charts for this sector. It's been a long time since Starfleet was in the area.  I'd like to know if we should expect any surprises."

Spock looked over and Autumn and then back at Kirk, "As you wish, Captain."

"It's Jim, Spock.  Jim!"  

Spock just nodded and rose silently.  He paused by Autumn's station as she adjusted a few settings and then finally stood and followed him out.

The door slid shut on the lift and they both reached to press the button.  Their hands touched and Autumn sucked in a sharp breath.  Spock lifted his brow at her and then put both of his hands behind his back once again.

"It is unwise for either of us to act upon our urges." he stated flatly.

Unwise, Autumn stewed, urges?  Right now the only urge she had was to kick him in the shin.  "Though you try to hide it, Spock, I know you feel."  She turned and looked up at him, "So tell me, are we talking about urges or feelings?"

"I do not wish to discuss the subject."

Autumn slammed her hand over the stop button and rounded on him, "Well I wish to discuss it."

"There is nothing to discuss."

"Yes there is.  Like how infuriating you are.  How much you live in denial of your true nature.  You try to conduct yourself as a full Vulcan, but you are not.  You are half human, Spock.  You shouldn't be ashamed of that.  Your Mother..."

"I am not ashamed of my mother." he snapped.

"I know that.  I wasn't going to imply that you were.  All I wanted to say was that your mother was human.  She loved you, why don't you think that another human is capable of the same emotion?"

"She was my mother." he stated simply and in his mind, that was the answer.  Amanda loved Spock because she was his mother.

"Then why did she love your father?"

There was no reply and Autumn knew that was because he did not have an answer.

"Spock," she whispered and look a step closer to him.  When he didn't move away, she took another one.  "Please tell me now if I'm alone in my feelings. If that is the case, I will never again bring the subject up."

Spock slowly looked down at her and swallowed. It took a few moments for him to find the courage to speak the words, "You are not alone."

"Then touch me."

"It is not an appropriate time.  The Captain will be expecting us."  

"Oh, please!  He know he sent us down here on a bullshit run."

"Bullshit?"

"Yes.  He knows we don't need to check the charts, you have everything right here."  Autumn touched Spock lightly on the temple and pressed her body against his.

She swore to herself she would make him come to her, but right now, that promise didn't matter.  She was sick of waiting and he was close to giving in, she could see it in those fathomless eyes of his.

Autumn slid her hand over his sharp jaw and to his soft lips where she brushed the corner of his mouth with her thumb.  She would not kiss him first.  In this matter, she would make him come to her.  She had pressured him more than she wanted, it was his time to act.

Spock's heart was pounding.  She was so close, so warm.  Vulcan's ran a little bit cooler than human's.  It was one of the things he remembered most about his mother.  She was always so warm.  Autumn's touch seared him and he felt himself start to cave.  All thoughts were pushed aside and emotions swelled.

His eyes lowered to her lips and when she licked and parted them softly, he broke.

The kiss was soft, tentative at first. A brush of lips, a sigh, a step closer on his part.  Spock buried a hand into her silky hair and pressed her mouth closer to his.  Lips parted and tongues touched.  Autumn trembled and moaned quietly as she traced the back of his neck with the tips of her fingers.

The kiss deepened for a few more moments before Spock pulled back and placed his forehead against hers.  "We have orders."

"You already know the answers, Spock."

"Yes, but you do not.  He will ask, it is his way."

She knew he was right, but she didn't want to let go.  "Don't pull away, please."

"I do no think I am capable now."

Autumn smiled, "Good because this isn't done."

"No it is not."

They stepped back from each other and Spock pressed the start button on the lift.  The door slid open a second later and they stepped out together into the darkness of the archive room.  

~~

Kirk giggled like a child when the door closed to the lift.  Bones shook his head and said, "You're a bad friend, Kirk."

"Bad friend?  Please, I'm helping him out."

"By pushing him?  He's not ready." Bones defended the pointy eared bastard that had become his friend.  

"Oh, trust me," Kick said, defending his actions, "He's ready.  Did you see the look on his face when Scotty was staring at her ass."

"Scotty's harmless and I don't think I've ever seen a different look on Spock's face but boredom, well, except when he was kicking your ass."

Kirk scowled at him but shrugged.  He knew he was right and Spock would finally let his emotions overcome him.

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #1 on: Wed, Nov 25, 2009, 02:16 PM »
I've never been one to watch Star Trek movies, but you might just have persuaded me to go and rent the new one FG
So glad to see you finally writing again.. and boy, you just showed me exactly why I've missed your stuff so much!
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Alabaster and onyx. Black and white. Logic and emotion. Everything about his nature warred against itself yet he remained aloof and detached.

 You had me hooked from here. I've never really understood Spock, yet those few words seemed to make me understand him. Even if I knew absolutely nothing about him(which I don't) I can now see why he is the way he is. Brilliant. And the next few sentences just make him even clearer to me.
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The cadence of his voice sent chills down her spine and she had many fantasies about nibbling on his ears

 It couldn't be a Star Trek fic without the mention of those ears :lolmao
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The kiss was soft, tentative at first. A brush of lips, a sigh, a step closer on his part.

Your kisses have always made me weak at the knees. Oh how I've missed the way you write the intimacy of such a beautiful act :prayer  Oh please let that be a sign that there will be a sequel :giggle  I never thought I'd see the day Kirk giggled... but he is indeed a good friend! Awesome finish sweetie! Actually, the whole thing is awesome.... but I wouldn't expect anything less from you FG!

Now if you'll excuse me... I'm off to rent the new Star Trek ;)

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #2 on: Wed, Nov 25, 2009, 05:24 PM »
:giggle
I can't get the images of the original cast out of my head - but that works for me too!  
Great story.
Glad to see that your muse has returned.

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #3 on: Thu, Nov 26, 2009, 05:51 AM »
I prefer the new Spock over the old any day... :hugs

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #4 on: Thu, Nov 26, 2009, 06:40 AM »
Thanks, Janine.  I still really like the old Spock, but the new one.  *sigh*  There is something about him.. he is just yummo.  He's also from Pittsburgh, which means, he might be in town right now for the holiday... that would be cool lol.  I can't wait to watch Star Trek again.. and again and again...... and again!  lol.  I think I got PS to rent the movie now ... yeah.  I'm thinking about another piece.  Not sure if I'll use Autumn or now.  Maybe?   That could put a nice twist on this one.

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #5 on: Thu, Nov 26, 2009, 10:48 AM »
I am still more used to the old Spock, but I loved the new movie, and I am sure I'll get used to the new cast.  Anyway, I really like your story. :grin
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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #6 on: Thu, Nov 26, 2009, 01:37 PM »
I've never cared much for TOS, my love for Star Trek blossomed with TNG, peaked with DS9 and then slowly ebbed again with Voyager. I was really hesitant to go see the movie but in the end it was really worth it. It was an awesome and fun movie, and I hope to get to see more of the new "old" crew. :)

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #7 on: Fri, Nov 27, 2009, 06:01 AM »
I loved the story FG. You did a great job with Spock's personality, as well as the way you brought the other crew members into the ending. New Spock has so much potential, especially as a romantic guy. I love the way you captured his inner struggle with possessiveness and jealousy. Very sexy!

And that new siggie is hot!

Even if you've never written Trek before, I think this fits into the fandom nicely. Besides, it's an alternate universe now, and the characters are slightly different than the original characters, so you can have a bit more wiggle room with their personalities. New Spock is indeed a hottie and I am thrilled to see a fic about him.

I hope you continue this one, or write some different characters. Maybe Spock with an empath? Maybe Spock with Kirk (possibly the original fanfic story was also the original fanfic slash story -- featuring the original Kirk and Spock). It might be fun to read about how Spock and Uhura met. Lots of possibilities!

I feel like I need to end every Star Trek 2009 post with a postscript about how much I love the original Trek and no one can ever replace Shatner and Nimoy. I've been a Trek fan since I was a kid, and I am drinking coffee from my Starfleet Academy mug right now. I can't think of ST09 and TOS as the same thing -- it's more like 2 separate entities in my mind. Love them both!
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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #8 on: Fri, Nov 27, 2009, 06:13 AM »
Thanks so much for the review, B.  Yes, no one can replace the original, but these two do a good job because they are a little bit different.  They don't try to be Shatner and Nemoy.  Everything is up in the air now, so they can get away w/ acting a little different than the original.  I love the eye fucking they got going on too so I might do some slash of that sometime in the future.

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #9 on: Fri, Nov 27, 2009, 07:41 AM »
Do it! Write more! These guys are too hot to not have their own stories. It's good to see you writing again. :D

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #10 on: Sun, Nov 29, 2009, 02:15 PM »
I just found something that has considerably brightened my day. I thought maybe it could do the same for you. ;)

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1408101/

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #11 on: Sun, Nov 29, 2009, 02:20 PM »
Yes, I know.  I'm excited.  I so am there... I'm working on another part of this as I type this :D  whoot whoot!

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« Reply #12 on: Sun, Nov 29, 2009, 03:57 PM »
Woot! indeed!! :D

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #13 on: Mon, Nov 30, 2009, 01:13 PM »
This very nicely put together the war of emtions that I felt was missing in the 'Whammo' surprise between Spock and Uhura  :rule

 :think May JJ Abrahms will be contacting you to join the writing team for the next ST install??!!

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Re: [Star Trek 2009]Human Emotions[PG-13][FIN]
« Reply #14 on: Sun, Aug 15, 2010, 01:23 PM »
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She was fully human and a mess of emotions and he found fascinating and infuriating. He did not understand half of what she said and none of what she did, but still he tried.  He watched.  He puzzled and thought.  He questioned until his head throbbed and still his questions remained unanswered.   

  I love this whole paragraph. What a way to start anything. Curiosity.

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"I do not wish to discuss the subject."

 You brought it up, dude.

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"Oh, please!  He know he sent us down here on a bullshit run."

"Bullshit?"

 [snort] Ah the joys of human nonsensical vernacular.

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well, except when he was kicking your ass."

 I love Bones. Always.

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He knew he was right and Spock would finally let his emotions overcome him.

 Never been a Kirk fan (though that could change with the reboot of the franchise) but the one thing I always liked was his intense loyalty to Spock. There was never just going the extra mile for his friend, it was always 10,000 miles.

Very sweet FG
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